I attended SFAS in June of 08. I had prepared for well over a year to get myself ready for what I concidered a dream of mine, becoming a green beret. The course was going great for me, as great as it could asside from me feet being destroyed and every joint and muscle hurting. On the 14th day of 15, the last team event a log was dropped on me and I tore my acl.
I was med dropped and given return when cleared by a physical therapist. I have since been cleared by a PT and contniued training myself back up. The issue that I'm facing about going back, is myself. I had dedicated so much time and preparation in getting ready the first time around and not making it devastated me, expecially only being one day away from the finish of selection. Special Forces has been my dream since joining the army and I fear something happening and I not making it again would mean the end of my military caeer.
I have competed in many competitions and attended other military schools, never having failed or placing poorly. I know I'm capable, I just can't mentally get past what happened the first time... I count that as a failure and that was one of the toughest days of my life when they told me I was being dropped.
I finally got myself assigned to 1st SFG(A), thinking that working with and for the green berets here would help push me past that fear of failure. The move has been good and I've met some great people and have had the opportunity to work directly with the group commander and csm. It has made me want it more, but reolizing that I'm not invinsable has deeply rooted that fear of failure in me.
Has anyone in here had to go through SFAS a second time or third time even in order to get selected? If so, did you ever start doubting yourself and how did you get get past it?
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