GR- I admire and respect immensely the personal aspirations and values that you display in your post.
Let me just get this out there - you are
not a true Muslim nor are you following Islam and you are certainly not the enemy. As my Brothers queried, you need to answer some fundamental questions about your choice to follow Islam which by the way you are
not following if in fact your words are reflecting your true beliefs and if in fact your actions are consistent with those beliefs.
One more thing - It took a lot of courage on your part to make that post here. That is an SF trait. OK, it wasn't
one more thing. Also, take a look at the references posted on this thread about the al Sira. Look at what Muhammad did as a reflection of his true motives and true values. Then ask yourself some questions - Is this a prophet of God? Do I want to emulate this person's values in my life? Is Islam really a religion?
You are asking the right questions in your post and I suspect that you have the motivation and moral courage to continue your quest. I also suspect that you have just found many guides to assist you along the way - count me among them.
