Did not qualify for trial program because "fair" condition isn't "poor" condition and since they only want those who can't qualify for open heart surgery and they're running only a 70% chance of living after a year,they felt it was in my best interests to go with open heart.........My response to my cardio is f**k it,I'm not going to go under the knife because after that operation I'll need not only medical help but it's a tremendous burden to put on Maggie who cannot be a caregiver since she's a terminal patient herself and unable to clean,cook,etc from a power wheel chair....
So I'll just hang in there and when it's time it's time....... Don't get me wrong guys I'm far from being a tough guy,but I have to do what I have to do and that's it..... 
Big Teddy 
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I believe that SF is a 'calling' - not too different from the calling missionaries I know received. I knew instantly that it was for me, and that I would do all I could to achieve it. Most others I know in SF experienced something similar. If, as you say, you HAVE searched and read, and you do not KNOW if this is the path for you --- it is not....
Zonie Diver
SF is a calling and it requires commitment and dedication that the uninitiated will never understand......
Jack Moroney
SFA M-2527, Chapter XXXVII
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