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Can't Sleep
Okay, So I've been back from the sandbox for just over two years, and sleep just isn't happening like it should (I slept better in Baghdad). When I do sleep for 5 to 6 hours or so, I'm always dreaming that I'm either right back at work, or I'm in some school/selection that never ends. I consider this ironic in that I have never attended SFAS, Ranger School, or any other hooah school. It IS my plan to complete SFAS, and all that follows afterwards, but these nighttime episodes are having an effect on my psyche, as that I am PT'ing religiously, (running, I freaking don't like it, but I do it because I must) But I DO think that somethingA inside me is spurring me on and cannot explain it. Did I mention that running sucks? But recently it's almost getting to be enjoyable in a sick kind of way. Sorry to be all over the place with this post, but I am looking for some kind of happy medium where I can continue training myself up to enter the pipeline and yet still get quality rest at night without dreaming I'm in the midst of field problem or right back in the restaurant at which I currently work. Feel like I'm trying to live two completely different lives. Anyone else out there overcome anything like this?
Thanks,
Chris
PS please move if this is more suitable for a different area
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